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Christmas was ok. I wasn't bummed or anything. I was very sneezy, though. I had to take some benadryl around 12pm. Knocked me out for a bit but I was up in time for dinner. The steqaks were simply delicious. I have to cut out the red meat now, though. Can't lose weight eating steaks. Right now I am off my diet because I just knew I wasn't going to stay on it for the holidays. WHen Jan 2nd comes I am going right back on it, and this time I am going to be more active. I want to lose about 100 lbs total but that is not my initial goal.

So I decided not to talk to W for a while. I know, again...? Well, he's blowing me off again. I don't want to try and talk to someone who apparently does not want to talk to me.

My depression is under control for the moment. The prozac seems to be helping a lot. Yes, I still feel blah. Yes, I am still unmotivated and uninterested in doing anything. But I think that now some of it is related to fear. Fear of the unknown. The pills only take the edge off. The rest is up to me.