it's been a while | nicoleal20's Blog

 I haven't blogged on here in over a month. I'm not much of a blogger anymore, but i just wanted to check in anyway.

nothing is new. no call yet from walgreens. they are still building the store. My husband won't be home until October. 3 months out. the economy is so bad that staying out that long is the only way he can make money.

I'm still sort of iffy about W. I talked to him online briefly and I sent him a note on FB but that's it. we just don't talk anymore. and even though it makes me sad sometimes, I'm ok with it. The other day it almost happened with B. he got mad because i did not finish the conversation with him that we had going via text. but i told him i was not feeling well, and i truly wasn't. still, he got all stinky about  it. I was about to say fuck him too but he came around.

It seems like the people i used to talk to online aren't around anymore. Even on FB I feel a little alienated. One thing i truly hate is writing something on someone's wall on FB and not getting a response. Nothing. Not even a 'go to hell, bitch!' But i notice their activities on other people's pages and it just irks me. I'm thinking of shutting all of my accounts, FB, MS, the whole kaboodle. What's the point of being on a social networking site if no one wants to be social with me? 

My mood lately: sigh..unmotivated. absolutely no drive to do anything. hopefully that will improve. Tomorrow I am making an appt with a doctor for a checkup. This pain in my sisde isn't going away. I want to know what it is before it becomes serious.

more later...