Its been a while | nicoleal20's Blog

I know it has been a long time since I wrote here. Part of me hasn't felt a need to. When I am feeling down I blog more so I must be feeling better, right?

Well, yes, sort of. I am not depressed. FOr the first time in my life I can say I am not depressed. I feel okay. Not wow! or great! but okay. and for me that is good. The only thing that has been bugging me is the fatigue. Before I was ok, energetic, ready to get up and go. These past few weeks my butt has been dragging and all I want to do is sleep. I think tomorrow i am not going to take any vistaril to help me sleep. It's possible that it is lingering too long. I also started taking the prozac in the evening because it might also be a cause of the fatigue. I stopped taking the wellbutrin temporarily because it made me very constipated. Its funny but before i wasn't having any of these side effects. why do they decide to pop up now?

SInce I last wrote about Christy nothing has happened. I took D's advice  and let it go. Why? well, part of me just doesn't care anymore. He has his life and I have mine. I won't go into detail. I will only say that my closet is not empty. i have my own skeletons..

My plan for going back to college is still with me. I just need some money to have my records released from the last college. Or maybe  will see if I can just forget it, bypass it. It's been 15 yrs now. The credits might now even count anymore. I actually look forward to going back to school. It's time I got on with my life. I want to have a degree by the time I am 45. I want to have a career shortly thereafter.

Got to keep moving forward...